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Puckering Time

It's now or never.
 

Boordom

"Boredom kills more relationships than any number of toothpaste tubes squeezed at the wrong end." - Jessica Zafra, Chicken Pox for the Soul.

No, I’m not pining for attention. That remorseful idea didn’t even surface until some asshole brilliantly enlightened me with remarkable exuberance that I am indeed craving for attention. Attention from what, I have no idea. But my tact proved unnecessary for the question seemed not to qualify the pronoun What; more likely, it’s Who. I’ve been in a seemingly irrational but highly emotional state that I found myself not functioning very well these past few days. If getting real sleep poses a real challenge, imagine what it would be like the following morning when you flutter your eyes open, and even before your brain receives the proper signals going through your synapses reminding you to open your gaping mouth and express diplomatic greetings of Hellos and Good Mornings, you realize that it’s going to be another hell of a day, nothing new to brag about, and basically have no one to mend the frayed pieces into one.

Most people think that I’m bursting with happiness, judging from the fact that I engage in hysterical and oftentimes hilarious conversations prompting gales of laughter in the process. But behind that uproarious giggling and intellectual chitchats is an entirely different human being – a freakazoid, not at all a loner, but I’m alone nonetheless for I’ve been a celibate for a longish time. I feel like there’s a very large hole that I have to plug, but the problem is I don’t know where the hole is. I’ve been trying to divert my attention to lots of interesting stuff. For instance, gadgets. I’m a tech whore, and I spend a large chunk of my retail therapy sessions in techie shops. Also I try to lose myself in books, and reading must be done in coffee shops. I require myself to do this bit of ritual at least once a week or I’d get freakier. Apart from these, I also go out with friends, and I recently found out the real purpose of the existence of Chocolate Kiss in UP, which brings me to another kind of diversion: eating out. My choice of restaurant depends on my mood for that particular day, and thanks to my frequent mood swings I can actually compare which is better. From Mandarin Oriental to Jollibee, Café Breton to Figaro, Max Brenner to Brownies Unlimited, Masas to Barrio Fiesta, I owe my eating experiences to them for I therefore conclude hereon that I am not a picky eater as compared to what friends say.

Despite this seemingly quote completeness unquote, I still feel a little dullness. I have resources within my reach, I do well in school, but then I’m not at all happy. You know those flicks wherein the filthy rich protagonists undergo some sort of a crisis, feel very discontented and gloomy with their lives, and find out in the long run that the only probable solution for their existential anguish is to renounce all their worldly treasures, and then they live happily ever after? I think I’m just like one of them, except that I am not filthy rich and have no worldly treasures to renounce for if I so much give up all what is left of me I would definitely end up a stinking cadaver.

What’s the point I’m driving at? I’m kind of missing someone. Kind of. That someone from my not-so-glimmering but nonetheless exciting past. Been having attempts to forget Someone, but she just wants to stay in my subconscious. A friend advised me to look for other prospects. That way I wouldn’t be feel so fucked up or something like that. Then I did what he advised me to do: I went to serious girl-hunting. For the first few attempts at groveling I found the experience quite exciting, but I realized that as I went along (with my friend as a companion) it was pointless. The only available flesh that would fling upon me would either look like a gargoyle or has a face that launched a thousand…missiles. I would eye for lovely beautiful girls then I’d get turned off for two simple reasons: intellectual differences and extreme bitchiness – and I hate the combination of the two. These phenomena always happen. Okay, not at all times, but on a regular basis. Occasionally I get to hook a potential mate, but the effects are way beyond human recognition of the word relationship. There are bombarding of nuclear insults, bombarding of nuclear-strength juices (ha ha!), and cleaning up the mess is just nasty, and it’s usually me who waves the white flag, letting it billow in the breeze for I really can’t be so indifferent with my feelings – at least I’m being transparent; other guys are so much obsessed with their egos, and letting a girl step on them is so like building the Pyramids single-handedly. You can look them up in my previous posts, and you can conclude that I wasn’t really in a relationship. I try to work things out. I try. But oftentimes it just doesn’t work.

Friends declare that if I try to figure out where my destined special someone is, Special Someone will not arrive at my doorstep. They added that Special Someone, at the right time and space continuum, will turn up effortlessly and will give me that perfect blend of smooches. Hmmm, sounds pretty uplifting. I can’t wait any further.

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At Wed Jul 25, 12:11:00 PM, Anonymous Juice retorts...

God I so know what you mean and what kind of place you're in now. Only, I'm a girl, so there's a difference of sorts, but the situation, relatively the same.

The most glaring difference probably is, I don't miss someone. More of, I need someone new. It's always going to get cliche when people say that certain someone is just gonna be right there under your nose and will turn up effortlessly. I'm beginning to think that's all bollocks now. This confusion has made my mind think otherwise. Gaaah. The hell with life.    



At Wed Jul 25, 05:06:00 PM, Blogger Billycoy retorts...

Ako matagal na rin akong naghihintay, parang buong buhay na nga lang yata ako naghihintay kaso mukhang inindyan na ako ng tadhana.

enjoy being single at the moment, hindi ka makakapag-foodtripping like you always do kapag may gf na.

it's like listening to a good music while waiting!    



At Thu Jul 26, 08:06:00 PM, Blogger Mike retorts...

juice: yeah, i kind of agree with you, that someone much better is in store for me. but for the longest time around, she hasn't materialized yet. and i'm getting really bored.

billycoy: well actually nakakapag-foodtripping naman ako kahit may gf; the problem is mas magastos. kapag ako lang, nako-control ko ang lahat.

now that you've made a comment, i really thought i was the only one having a hard time. haha.    



At Sat Jul 28, 12:44:00 AM, Blogger Jigs retorts...

Do you think there's wisdom in waiting for the right one for you?

I still think one cliche holds true. That love shouldn't be rushed. But, I do understand how you feel. How lonesome and frustrating it can feel.    



At Tue Mar 30, 02:24:00 AM, Anonymous Anonymous retorts...

I really like R&G Brenner. One of the most daunting aspects of the American tax system is just the simple fact that it changes each year. Some of these changes are built into the legislation that enacted the measure, which is why many limits and income restrictions change every year. Other changes stem from the fact that the progressive tax system used by the United States is specifically designed to perform more functions than merely raising revenue for the federal government.    



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